Thursday is approaching

I have an appointment Thursday to discuss my fertility issues. It's a new doctor and I'm going in with a LONG list of concerns.

I go from being excited and looking forward to the appointment to being terrified of what it'll bring. I am excited because I want answers and a plan. But, at the same time, I'm scared. I don't want to think there is something wrong with me. I don't want that guilt...that something with MY body caused my losses. Don't get me wrong, I know He needed them and that's ultimately why they died, but it doesn't make it any easier for me. I'm scared the doctor might blow me off. I'm scared I may need fertility drugs. I'm scared of hearing I can't have a baby...

Please, pray that my appointment goes well. Pray that whatever happens, God helps me through it. Pray for my family. DH and I want nothing more to be parents. Yet, again and again, we are stuck on the sidelines watching everyone else fulfill our dreams by accident.