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We were married on September 27, 2009. We began our journey more than three years ago. We have had four losses to date and are still trying to conceive our sticky bean.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Thursday is approaching

I have an appointment Thursday to discuss my fertility issues. It's a new doctor and I'm going in with a LONG list of concerns.

I go from being excited and looking forward to the appointment to being terrified of what it'll bring. I am excited because I want answers and a plan. But, at the same time, I'm scared. I don't want to think there is something wrong with me. I don't want that guilt...that something with MY body caused my losses. Don't get me wrong, I know He needed them and that's ultimately why they died, but it doesn't make it any easier for me. I'm scared the doctor might blow me off. I'm scared I may need fertility drugs. I'm scared of hearing I can't have a baby...

Please, pray that my appointment goes well. Pray that whatever happens, God helps me through it. Pray for my family. DH and I want nothing more to be parents. Yet, again and again, we are stuck on the sidelines watching everyone else fulfill our dreams by accident.


  1. Wow... we are so much alike (very similar circumstances) it's not even funny! I have been & will continue praying. (((((HUGS)))))