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We were married on September 27, 2009. We began our journey more than three years ago. We have had four losses to date and are still trying to conceive our sticky bean.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

And it starts!

Within hours of the announcement we had people asking how they could help. A few of those ladies, rather than asking, offered to run a fundraiser for us. The first is now up and running: https://kcardwell.scentsy.us/Buy?partyId=38314673

Kristin has gracious offered to let this run for 6 weeks and is giving us 100% of her profit from this party. Please take a look and spread the word. After 4 losses and more than a year of infertility, it feels great to be on the road to a baby.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

New plan (again)

Hopefully, this will be our last ever 'new plan.'

Today we went to an adoption seminar. I won't bore you with all the details. I will say that Chris and I are both glad we went. There were three attorneys present that spoke about the local laws. Going in, I was nervous that this would either make it seem like it was impossible for us or that it would cause some bickering between us. If you remember from previous posts, we haven't exactly been on the same page about timing of all this.

Anyways, back to the plan. We're going to start with making a list of things that we'd like done before a home study. We're given ourselves one week to create the list. We're then taking one week for each item on the list.

Once the list is mostly done, we'll start looking for an attorney and home study agency. Then, finally, we'll start networking. :) I'm so excited and relieved to finally be moving forward with something.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Mother's Day

Since my losses, I dread Mother's Day each year. As the day approaches I talk to Mom and express my sadness and what-not. Every year, she goes out of her way to do something small in honor of my babies.

This year, however, the week(s) leading up to Mother's Day was/were a breeze. I knew it was coming, but it wasn't as nearly as hard as the past several years. As a result, I didn't talk about it. I didn't need to. This led to an all-out panic on Saturday night. What if, because I didn't make it known that I still need/want that recognition no one does anything? What if, because I didn't mention it to mom, she doesn't do anything? I tried to tell myself that I'd hold it together, and that it wasn't her job to do something, and really, I shouldn't expect it. And I didn't expect it, really, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't HOPE that she'd do something.

Well, as usual, my worries and freak-out was unwarrented. Within minutes of arriving at Mom's she sent Niecelet out with a box and a card. In the box was a gorgeous multi-colored pearl set that consisted of a necklace, bracelet, and earrings. Inside the card was a lovely, heartfelt, handwritten note from my sister. Turns out that set was from the baby because I'm her Godmother.

That's not all though. After that was said and done, mom gave me another box. Inside the second box was a necklace with a heart charm. The charm had the word "Love" engraved in it along with six little stones. Later, when we were alone outside, she pointed out the stones and said "There are 6. One for you, one for Chris, and one for each of your babies." Have I mentioned that I LOVE my Mom?!

I love that she makes it a point to do these things for me on the days I need them most. She does something each Christmas too. I hate that she has reason to understand but love that she does. I'm very lucky to have her as part of my support network.

As for pictures, I haven't gotten any yet, but hope to soon. When I do I'll share them with you.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

A Post In Which I Talk About A Bit Of Everything

I know, I know, I'm a bad blogger. Once again it has been way to long. I'll start off by announcing that our first NTNP (not trying, not preventing) month was a bust. I didn't track ovulation, but I did start four days early. I'll see what happens next month and maybe we'll start tracking again to see what's going on in there. Yes, old habits die hard. I like the freedom but wish I knew what was going on with my body all the same.

Now, why haven't I blogged? Frankly, there hasn't been a lot to say on the topic of this blog. We're not on meds, not actively trying, and haven't really started with the adoption stuff. We have been plenty busy and I will give a brief general update but to post as things happen, I think it would take too much from the meaning of this blog.

When I started writing, I was in a difficult spot. We had experienced three losses, were starting testing, and taking the plunge into ttc again. I needed an outlet for those emotions and fears. Now, I don't need that as much, but I still want this blog's main focus to be about our journey to parenthood--it just so happens our journey has slowed to a crawl.

Anyway, the brief overview. Aside from work, we've been watching Niecelet grow. She's 18 months old and is talking in short sentences 99% of the time. She climbs, jumps, runs, catches, and if you tell her "no" about something she replies with "Yes." lol She is a little diva and we're so proud of her. (Though those moments of jealousy toward my sister absolutely still exist, they are a little less painful now.)

Aside from watching Des grow up, we've been busy with other things. Last weekend we participated in the second annual Hike For A Cure. I will not go in all of the details here, because once again, I don't want to deflect from the blog's purpose. If you want to know more, let me know. I'll be more that happy to share.

We've also been going through our things to donate to a community yard-sale next weekend to raise money for Fanconi Anemia Research. Chris's ex-coworker/girl I went to school with has a son with this awful disease.

Then, of course, there's Mother's Day this weekend. Mother's Day is always difficult. I'm not sure what I'll do this year to honor our babies. Of course, I never really know until the last minute.

On the 14th Chris and I will be attending an adoption workshop. Who knows what will come of that?

Let's see what else...I have four days booked where I'm covering for a teacher that's getting married this month. And in June (6-9) I'll finally be taking a course to get my CPST cert. Basically, I will then be able to give car seat advice guilt free. =D

Oh, and back in April, I hosted my second bone marrow drive and signed up more than 25 people! Looking forward to the next drive in October!