Friday, October 30, 2009
What a day!
For those who are reading and who may not have experienced multiple miscarriages, you may not fully grasp this blog. My sister had her baby. While this is supposed to be a huge happy occasion, I'm NOT happy. I mean, yes, I love my new niece and would do anything for her, but damn it, it's not fair! My sister is 21. The baby's father...well, he's less than desirable. Destiny was not planned. After all my husband and I have been through, why does she get to have a baby and I don't? Damn it, why is it so fucking hard? I miss the innocence. I miss actually being happy for someone who has a baby.