Tuesday

I have called and set up an appointment for next Tuesday with the RE. I'm slightly nervous that the appointment won't go well...Tuesday is already going to be a rough day as it's the day Jillian would have been due.

I realized this at the time I scheduled the appointment, but now I'm wondering if it was such a good idea after all. What if I go and for some reason we leave without a plan?

HSG and Femera

I just got through posting this on my support board so since I'm hurting, I'm just going to C&P instead of typing a separate blog.

It wasn't nearly as bad as I expected...though it was definitely uncomfortable. The biggest annoyance was that he kept telling me to "relax." Yea, dude, let me do this to you and YOU relax! lol

I'm still crampy but it's not even as bad as my period cramps. (Disclaimer: AF cramps usually result in me being curled up in a ball with no meds helping!) We even ran errands after the appointment and went to taco bell! Going to MIL's tonight for dinner for BIL's belated bday dinner. (I wouldn't wanna cook anyway.)

As for Fermera, I did ask him about that. He didn't seem like he wouldn't but wants me to think on it some and come in to discuss options more thoroughly first. He did tell me that the FDA has required Femera to add a "Black Box Warning" stating that there have been a reported increase of birth abnormalities. BUT there are several things to look at.

1. Femera was created at a breast cancer drug. Woman reporting this COULD be breast cancer patients who are also on other drugs and are taking Femera for a longer time period. Really, in using Femera for infertility, the drug SHOULD be out of your system by the time the baby is developing. Therefore, this could likely be the case.
2. The US is the only country to have reported this. (Canada and at least one other--don't remember which--also use Femera for infertility and have not seen this.)
3. Woman using Femera for infertility could likely have some genetic issues anyway that could cause abnormalities. There's no way of knowing if it's the undetected genetic issue or if it's Femera.

Given this, we are going to research a bit more, but are likely to request the Femera anyway. Oh, and btw, the HSG was normal. No blockages, no scar tissue!

Change of Plans...again

Once again, it's been a while since I've posted. Since my last post, Chris and I have been relaxing on the trying to conceive front. No temping, no charting, no opks, no meds, nothing. Just sex whenever the mood struck. And to prove my response to all those that have said "Relax and you'll get your baby" we have not conceived. In fact, I didn't even ovulate last month. (I know, you're thinking "how can she possibly know that if she's not monitoring her cycle.) I became fairly certain I didn't ovulate when my period came three days early and was light for one day before being done. How is relaxing going to get me anywhere if my body doesn't freaking work!?!

So, now onto what we're going to do. At my last RE appointment Dr. I informed me that if we weren't pregnant on our own be October that we would move to injectibles. Despite my fear of shots, I was excited to be moving forward next month.

In preparation, Chris and I talked a lot about it and we decided that we weren't comfortable moving forward with treatment until I had an HSG to check for any scarring from the infection or from our losses. After much procrastination, I called and requested this painful test. It is scheduled for Monday, Sept 20th at 8am.

While on the phone, I asked about the cost of the Bravelle and Hcg trigger. She told me that they would cost $950+ a cycle! I was devastated. I have been unemployed for a year. There is no way we can afford that. I managed to hold it together until I got off the phone and had a major breakdown. I posted on my support boards in the midst of the breakdown and, as usual, the women were amazing. Not only did the lift my spirits, they managed to renew hope. At the suggestion of a woman on the Trying to Conceive with Medical Assistance board (followed up by my own research of course) we have decided to insist on Femera. Femera is similar to the Clomid I have taken in the past but studies have proven it to be more effective. In addition, the biggest concern I had when on Clomid doesn't apply to Femera.

That about concludes this update. I will post again within the next week.