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The most recent was watching Father of the Bride. The scene where Nina (mom) learns of Annie's (daughter) engagement. In this scene, Nina is smiling and crying as she cusps Annie's face. Kinda like this:
This picture was taken as right as mom learned about the twins. My heart breaks even more knowing the pain she (and so many others) experienced with the loss of our precious babies. I know it's not my fault and that nothing could've been done but yet I feel guilty. I loved sharing my babies with everyone for those few days, but feel like an ass for dashing their hopes. :(
I felt like I'd failed everyone. My husband, my family who was SO excited, his family. It's one of those crappy things about losses like this. It's our body, we're the mother, we're supposed to protect them...and we failed. It's not our fault, but it sucks big time.
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