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We were married on September 27, 2009. We began our journey more than three years ago. We have had four losses to date and are still trying to conceive our sticky bean.

Thursday, November 3, 2011


Lately, I've found that my bitterness is back. Almost every Facebook post about a pregnancy/baby/child causes me to feel very bitter. Really, it's not just facebook. JM's stupid celeb crap on the side is ticking me off too. I really don't care about who's due this month or having a baby or whatever...and I certainly have no desire to see the big pregnant belly that is on the side bar.

Of course, then there's the fact that while I know the pain would never completely disappear, I sure didn't expect to feel this bitter almost five years later! I hate this. Why do the emotions insist on resurfacing anytime I finally start to think "I'm doing pretty well"

(Yes, this is the same as my RPL post, but I would like to think that a few others read the blog that aren't from RPL.)


  1. I hate the constant reminders, as if life is saying, "Ha! Let me just continue to rub it in your face!" on a daily basis. ((HUGS))

  2. I'm right there with you. Today in WalMart I see a friend (who used to give me the BEST advice about TTC.....aka "just relax") with her two year old, her 1 year old and her very pregnant belly....Yep, I'm bitter about it.

  3. I think you have a right to feel that way from time to time, you're only human. You don't let it run your life, so you just let it out. ((hugs))

  4. Thanks ladies. I knew you all would understand.