Broken Heart; Empty Arms

It's back-to-school time. That means sales and post galore of the first day of school. It seems that everywhere I turn there is a preschooler going to school for the first time. It hurts. Dominic should be starting homeschool preschool this year. (Well, technically if he wanted to we could have started last year but this year we'd be doing it no matter what).

I want to homeschool so bad! It's probably the thing I look forward to most...and yet I'm forced to wait another several years before I can do so. :( I want to be at a park right now or at the table working. I want to be trying to get Gwen, Aiden, and Jill to let Dominic work. (Even if that means they all have to nap!)

I want to be planning lessons and brainstorming. I want to know his learning style and be looking at Kindergarten curricula. I want to know if Gwen would decide she wants to do it with her big brother and doesn't want to wait a year.

I hate having to imagine what it would be like. I should KNOW. =(